It is the final few days of #JournalinginJuly and I’ve certainly come to enjoy the theme and prompts. Today I’m writing #JournalinginJuly Challenge Week 5
Thank you to all who participated, followed along and commented. A special thank you to my ‘partner-in-journaling’, Debbie Harris from Deb’s World who has been a fun and witty co-host (she also happens to be a dear friend).
Thank you to my guest writers for the Challenge:
- Debbie from Deb’s World who wrote 5 things I don’t want in my life
- Suzanne from Picture Retirement who wrote Write Your Life – a Personal Journey
- Molly Totoro who wrote My Journaling Story
- Jennifer from Unfold and Begin who wrote The Evolvement of My Journaling Journey
If you missed any posts or want to start following the journal prompts in your time to can find JOURNALING IN JULY HERE
The last linkup for #JournalinginJuly will be this coming Saturday and Deb and I will continue the Saturday link up for August with the them of Ageing Well in August. I hope you will join us and share your thoughts.
#JournalinginJuly Challenge Week 5
I looked at the prompts for the last few days and sure enough, I haven’t made them easy! I suppose that is really what a challenge is about though – pushing us to do more than just the normal or taking the easy way. I also need to warn you that some of my thoughts seem to be darker than usual. Life can’t always be ‘rainbows and unicorns’ and these prompts have made me delve deeper into what I truly want from life. I certainly need to take my own coaching advice and stop for a moment to see where I am and where I would like to be.
Day 28 – A Daydream
Daydream a series of pleasant thoughts that distract one’s attention from the present.
Lately, I could do with some daydreaming especially when I read the definition of ‘daydream’. I’ve been thinking about my choice of two words to define my year in 2019. They were Commit and Evolve and 2019 was going to be the ‘Evolution of Sue’. I’m on track to achieve these two words as I review my year so far, however, it suddenly hit me reading this prompt that in my evolution I haven’t included any time for ‘daydreaming’.
When I first read this prompt I didn’t think I could write anything but now the words are pouring out and I probably need to write many pages. Warning, this might not be your idea of a daydream!
Daydreaming and finding contentment is something I need to revisit as lately life has been too full of commitments and not enough of daydreaming. Of course this is all self imposed and during my upcoming holiday to Alaska and Canada I will be seriously considering my life options, because something has to change. I need to find the elusive balance between feeling fulfilled by my goals but also enjoying life and being with my husband. Perhaps it is time to ‘take the foot of the pedal’ and ease back – but am I capable of that?
Life is like that for me. I set my goals and then am driven to achieve them but sometimes that can be at a cost that perhaps I no longer want to pay.
Day 29 – Freestyle – any subject that you choose or feel moved to write about
I’m with my grandsons today, Ethan 5 and Elliot 1. Each Tuesday I travel to Brisbane (a one hour drive) to spend time with them. I walk Ethan to school and then spend the day with Elliot until it is time for school pickup. This is the one day of the week when I feel free. I spend my time learning about life through the eyes of a 5 and 1 year old. I am not looking at social media or spending time online. I’m focused on enjoying the simple pleasures of conversations about life with Ethan and the joy of seeing Elliot crawling, standing and growing (too fast!).
This feeling of freedom is something that I need more of. I probably am kidding myself when I say I would enjoy having my days unplanned and a just taking life as it comes because in reality that is not my personality. However, the sense of freedom from responsibilities that I have created is certainly inviting.
Perhaps it is timely that we have a holiday planned in September. A cruise to Alaska and then touring Canada. I’m looking forward to spending time with my darling husband and perhaps taking some time to actually stop and think seriously of what I want in my life and what needs to go.
Day 30 – My Best Friend
I don’t have a best friend – there I’ve said it. I did have a best friend throughout school.Her name was Kerran and we met on the steps of the Post Office before we started school. We did everything together, school and ballet and she was my daughter’s Godmother. But through circumstances on my side, the friendship faded. Since then I’ve never really had what we would normally term ‘a best friend’.
Of course my husband is my closest friend and confidante, I love spending time with him and we have a relationship where we are contented just being together even in silence. He is supportive and loves me unconditionally even putting up with all of my ‘ideas and goals’ and my ‘gung ho’ attitude. My daughter is also someone I can confide my inner most thoughts to and love our relationship because we can ‘vent’ to each other with no judgement.
However, I am also fortunate to have friends who although are few in number provide quality friendship in spades. These include my friendships ‘in real life’ such as my Saturday Sisters who I run with and my closest blogging friendships that I’ve formed in the 4.5 years I’ve been blogging in particular my Best Blogging Buddy, Leanne from Cresting the Hill, Debbie from Deb’s World and Donna from Retirement Reflections who is so supportive of my blog and who I am excited to be meeting when I visit Canada next month.
Day 31 – How has this challenge changed me?
The biggest change I’ve experienced doing this challenge is being able to put my inner most thoughts down. I’ve tried journaling on and off but have usually sat down with a beautiful journal and pen and a blank mind to match my blank journal page. The use of prompts has definitely helped me to focus and although at times I didn’t think I could write anything, inspiration came. Some days I would mull over the prompt before writing anything and other days the writing would be much easier.
The challenge has surprisingly shown me areas of my life that I’m not happy with or the realisation that I don’t really want to follow certain paths any longer. It has also reminded me that I need to find some time for living, daydreaming and enjoying each day without putting self-imposed pressure on myself to ‘perform’.
I’ve also learned that others have enjoyed the theme and felt it helped them to gather their thoughts. I would definitely like to undertake the process again in the future.
If I’m honest with myself, I’m not sure that I would continue to journal without prompts or the challenge that I developed through the blog. There was a responsibility to follow through and I’m proud of myself that I achieved that.
I’ve come to realise that journaling is a way of writing our story and it doesn’t necessarily have to be something that we don’t share with others. Although I have read comments from my readers to suggest that their journaling helps them to solve problems or to write down their feelings rather than acting them out. Some even burn their pages when they have finished.